About Me March 14, 2008

     More importantly than where I live, who I work for, and what my thrills in life are is who I serve. An that my friends is the Lord Most High. 

     I too have fallen into that trap of a career, focusing on my ‘things,’ living a life revolved around my ‘things,’ having a marriage where the wrong stuff was at the center, and drifting far from the desires of the Lords heart. But in my young, 27 year old, life I have realized all of that means nothing in the scope of eternity. Nothing when the Lord is left out of every part of it or even one part of it. 

     No matter how hard I tried to fix my problems or better my decisions I left the most important person out. Then I nearly lost everything- except Him. Now in the wake of my own stupid life decisions I have finally come to know the Lord as my first love. Because of that He is working in me to fullful His calling on my life. I’m trying to stay feet planted on His path, eyes forward, and alert to His desires. While having a heart filled & content with Him. Stepping one foot at a time onward into my calling from Him- speaking and writing.

     One day I was walking… tripped… and fell totally in love with Jesus. This is our love story: 

Who Were You?

A confused child, rebelling against what i knew because i could and i was angry. I was angry at life, angry with all 4 of my parents, angry at God for allowing things to happen to me because i didn’t realize it was with purpose, extremely anxious, full of anxiety, committing acts of willful stupidity, scared, scarred, hurt, jealous, promiscuous, partying, drug abuser, people pleas-er, liar, cheater, and lost. Later, an adult who desperately wanted to further her career, have the perfect marriage, the perfect home, the perfect car, the perfect paycheck, and all this because me, myself, and I made it happen.

 Who Was He?

The man upstairs who kept my parents busy at church more than paying attention to me and the things going badly wrong in my life,  he made me have to grow up in a broken home, he gave my mother breast cancer in my senior year of high school hence throwing my life into more chaos,  the man allowing me to be filled with these problems but not making life easy for me, the one who left me alone or what felt like was alone. As an adult, He was an interference with my personal agenda and because of that put on the back burner.

 What Happened?

After being kicked out of my parents house, many wrong choices, taking up an offer to rent with a co-worker, whom I abused drugs with, I was involved in an automobile accident that nearly cost me my life (although was not my fault). After losing my job, nearly my marriage, being forced to sell my beloved $40K SUV, and being striped of my big pride i was emptier than ever before. Empty in a desperate way and ashamed.

 Where were You?

Waking up out of a coma many weeks after the accident in my ICU hospital bed. Alive… but immobile, speechless, clinging to life and very, very humbled. I didn’t know what happened to me; but i was well aware that i should not have survived it. Later in my life i was humbled again but this time by pride.  I was thankful to still have my husband even if i lost everything else and that was all I had besides the Lord.

 Who Are You?

Saved- Forgiven- Redeemed- Loved Infinitely- Scarred-But with purpose! Anxious-But for the exciting things God is gonna do in my life! Angry-At the devil for telling me lies! Humbled- At the awesomeness of how God would take me, a pathetic loser, and restore my life after what i was doing to destroy it! Grateful for His Grace- Healed- Purpose Filled & Driven- Vision Seeking- Recklessly Abandoning Myself- Leaping from my personal boat of comfort- Jesus Lovin’ Freak!

Who Is He Now?

My Deliverer, Healer, Redeemer, Friend, Refuge, Strength, Forgiver of my sins, Joy, Peace, Lifter of my head, Heartache Healer, Giver of the greatest gift, Promise Keeper, Soul Cleanser, my personal I Am, and most of all my Everything. 

     Whew! Well, now you know. If God can do a work in my life, anyone else should be a breeze right?! There’s grace for us all.

    If you’d like to read my testimony and see the picture proof it’s on the page called “My Testimony” or just click here.

 

Becoming Isaiah 61:1,

Heather