Yesterday I got my registration in the mail for the She Speaks conference. It was such a hectic day that i never got the chance to actually sit down and read any of it. Well, i finally did today. As i read through the paperwork a wave of chills went down my spine, my eyes teared up, and all of a sudden the nervousness set in. Nowi’m kind of an emotional wreck. I’m not a cry-er, but i think i am today. I don’t really know why i cry when i think about this (going to the conference). I guess it’s maybe the realization that this somehow marks the beginning of whatever it is that the Lords up to with & In me because the choice to GO was my first step outta the boat of comfort and familiarity. It’s exciting and i know i shouldn’t feel nervous. Maybe it’s not totally nervousness either. Perhaps the thought that God could use my life’s struggles to bring joy to His name- which is very humbling so i hear.
Hebrews 12:1 “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”
You all are my witnesses! So i’ll throw off my thoughts which hinder me many times and the unbelief of some which also hinders me. I’m freeing myself from any sin that entagles by rendering & repentance. An lastly i am going to run this race marked out for us!! The race for time because not a one of us knows how many more days or hours we have until our departure or the arrival of the Lord for his children to bring us home. The race is to love Him more each day by living out the instructions He gave us in His Word. Because of that love for the Most High unbelievers will be drawn and when they seek out from their heart of hearts where this love comes from they will find Him- The Lord of Lords, King of Kings, Forgiver of Sins, Healer of Hearts, The Great I Am. An all this regardless of how rich, how poor, how successful or not, how broken hearted, how lonely, how humbled, how famous, how big or small a church, how many activities or not, how old or young, how shy or bold, how much scripture knowledge or not because by Him we are accepted just as we are, where we are! How bout’ a race for that folks!?! It’s awesome to see friends and unbleivers turn their lives over to the Lord.
I pray the Lord makes me a good runner like Billy Graham. I know your thinking, “Billy Graham didn’t run he preached.” Well, preaching is running the race! Can you imagine if we could count how many have come into a personal relationship with the Saviour from his ministry- that the Lord operates? I bet millions!! I would say Billy Graham and his ministry have “run” the race with a perseverance that the Lord has ignited in them day-after-day, year-after-year. An look at the fruit they have to show for their obedience, willingness, and complete trust in the Lord.
Even though i’m kinda nervous about this trip to the conference. I’m thinking B-I-G, no in the box Jesus for me!! I’m stectching out… in prayer… that God moves mountains and springs up wells in my life. I hope all of you are! We gotta think bigger than ever before because the sin seems to be growing larger and faster. An lets face it- People need the Lord!
Fighting Back Tears- Heather
I’m nervous too! (found your sight from lysa’s) This will be my first overnight away from my kids & hubby, plus I feel rather insignificant compared to other writers! But I know this is where God wants me to be, so I”m very excited too! I don’t have a book, so I’m not meeting with a publisher, just going to learn and grow.
See you there!