Being Raised from the Dry Well June 27, 2008

“I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.” – John 6:35

How many, many times have we tried to fill our life buckets with contaminated water? I know for myself that it’s been ten times too many. Who knew such buckets could sustain the weight of sinful decisions in  mass quantity?! Yet the whole time all i needed was one drop of His living water, one taste of His bread of Life.

“My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water.” – Jeremiah 2:13

Today I was reading about the story of the Samaritan woman at the well. How she had been searching to get her thirst quenched from the wrong places. How often have we done the same? People, Enjoyment, Accomplishment.

“On the last and greatest day of the Feast, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, ‘If anyone is hungry, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him.’” -John 7:37-38

For some reason I hung around the ‘Dry Well’ far too long, perhaps that was a pride issue. Okay, why am i perhaps-ing– It was most certainly a pride issue! I was ‘that’ woman at the well- ashamed of my poor choices and the consequences they had. I was dig, dig, digging dry wells left & right. Then the Lord met me there and offered me a stream of living water. Since I have taken him up on that the only thirst i have is for more of Him and less…so much less… of me. Now i want to run off like the Samaritan women leaving my jar behind and bring everyone back to see for themselves the Christ- THE Living Water.

Are you feeling like that woman at the well? Drinking of the contaminated waters of sin & shame. Wanting more but always coming up dry. Call upon the Lord to fill you up with His stream of Living Water! Then get your pool rafts & suntan lotion and just bask in His awesomeness girls!

God Winks, I Nod June 25, 2008

     I ask how does one sum up the greatness of the Lord. I don’t know, therefore, i’m going to share with you until my fingers hurt I suppose. An you can read till your eyes hurt.

     I feel that i was pretty prayed up for this conference and spiritually aligned with where the Lord wanted me to be. So I guess it should come as no great surprise that He answered my prayers and then some during those 2 1/2 days.

     My heart is just so full coming off of a trip like that. I wish i could feel this same excitement day-after-day as i press onward into the Lords call to me. I know there are always moments and times of dullness but i’m praying the Lord will keep me from those or help me get out of them quickly.

     I have been wanting to share my heart and what has taken place with you but i guess i’ve just been ‘lost in the moment’ if you will. I hope your eyes won’t wear out while I share. “Smile”

Godwink #1- Day One

Most of you who know me know my intimidation of women. I don’t mean i intimidate them but vice versa. I plopped myself down in a chair to go over my schedule and prepare for my 1st class in moments when i overheard a conversation behind me. “Oh yeah, you know my kid….” Many of you know i’m not supposed to be able to have kids and that’s why these conversations drive me nuts. I am completely aware that i don’t have kids- thankful for it many many times. But it is weird to be 27 and the only one not pregnant or two kids down, one to go. I cringed as I heard them talking and i immediately prayed, “LORD… HELP! Please send me 1 good girlfriend i’ll have forever.” Then PLOP down sits this beautiful girl in the chair next to me. Little did i know she was about to be the answer to my prayer! The first true friend i ever prayed and asked for. An the Lord is so good He made her a million times better than i could have dreamed up. I was tempted to beg her to let me move in so more of her thought processes can rub off on me. BONUS: Her mom was there and she is the cutest lil’ momma. I laughed many times because she reminds me so much of my own mother. An you all know how close my mom & I are.

Godwink #2- Day Two

I had pre-selected my classes before coming. Lots of classes were so full they had tickets to get you in the door. I had looked over my schedule so many times that i just knew that i was certain which room letter my class was in. Once it started i realized i was in the complete wrong class!!! Not to mention i was sitting at almost the front so i didn’t want to get up and leave. The speaker, Luanne Prater, spoke on Preparing for the Battlefield Through Prayer. This mistake no doubt was purposeful by the Lord. She spoke on the very thing i had been working on before coming- Freedom from Bondage. Where i learned to search out the area’s that the devil was able to creep in thanks to my opening the door sometimes unintentionally. Also, renouncing these sins. Which there was plenty of! Trust me i think i repented of more sin in my 27 years than most of the longest living people in the bible committed. Well, Luanne touched on the things that were in that book. I felt as though the Lord was confirming my obedience in repentance to Him for those acts. An also showing me how to take a stand through prayer from that day forward. This was the best class i attended there! My mistake, God’s purposeful plan.

Godwink #3- Day Two

At the end of the class spoke about above if we didn’t have prayer partners we were called up to the front and paired up with a random partner. My new prayer partner & I went back to give each other some info and what we needed prayer for. She wrote her’s on the back of her business card. During our conversation i flipped the card over and giggled. She is an interior decorator too. I told her God must have a great sense of humor that we would wind up prayer partners with similar interests.

 

Godwink #4- Day Two

After the class and getting my new prayer partner we were told to go check out this room where the P31 (Proverbs 31 Ministry) Team had prayed over our names and waited for direction from the Lord on which one of His names to place us under. Well, I went into the room and guess what my name was under…. El Shaddai- The God Almighty. Means God is powerful enough to provide for all of my needs. Me, huh?! Well, of all the names this one is mine for sure. As you know my struggles this year with the loss of my surgeon and the commotion of finding a new one and being reminded of how complicated my body has become because of the accident and surgery it was a for real roller coaster ride emotionally. Very hard for me to not get off track. But in the end the Lord provides. I wanted to leap when i read that name! I know my friends that the Lord can and will provide for me. I have already seen His provision.

Wanna see another womans experience with her name and the pics of the prayer room… Go Here

GodwinK #5- Day Three

I purchased a book while there on the Art of Storytelling. I kept trying to open it to read but i never got the chance till at the airport ready for home. I was just sitting there reading my bible and thanking God for his goodness to me and the chance to be at She Speaks. Then i pulled out the book, opened it up, and discovered it wasn’t about writing at all. It was for speakers. An i had specifically prayed for the Lord to provide me with the resources for better studying into the scriptures in a particular way. Well, in the very back of the book was 2 pages worth the resources with a description about every one of them. I was so excited! This was a simple desire of mine to be able to understand customs and the lifestyles of the era when the Bible was being inspired. There it was at the end of my glorious weekend.

     During my time spent there at the conference the Lord impressed upon me that i was to speak and write, perhaps speaking leading to writing. So my turf has been expanded. It’s exciting because i know it’s a journey the Lord wants to take me on where i’ll better know Him, become dependant on Him more than ever before, and a way that He can reach others. I’m humbled He wants to use me. But i can’t help to be excited for the future. I have absolutely NO idea where to start just yet. I’m gonna have to pray and see where the Lord leads me. Friday will be my first day of prayer and starting the exercises taught in the book. I have to learn to share and i have LOTS to learn! Here I go or better said… Here I grow!

 

W-o-w! June 22, 2008

I have arrived back home safely from the She Speaks Conference. All I can say right now is W-O-W!! The Lord exceeded my expectations in a huge, big, gigantic, monstrous way. What was His alternative right?! He’s a huge, big, gigantic, enormous, loving Abba Father!!! Who answers the prayers of His “dust” children in ways they can’t find words to express. That’s how I am at this moment- speechless. In fact, I’m still trying to soak in all that I’ve just experienced. I can’t wait to share it with you all. But not just yet.

NOTE TO MY SHE SPEAKS GIRLFRIENDS

D* Rest:I prayed two minutes before you sat in the chair on Friday that the Lord would send me a really great girlfriend for life. Once again He has superseded my expectations!! I could not have connected with anyone i would have enjoyed more. Someone who i believe really, truly lives out ”resting.” I’m sure He planned that because i have A LOT to learn from you in that department. I see a book contract on the horizon girl! I look forward to being privy to seeing the Lord open amazing doors for you from your obedience to His call and your trust in Him. PS- Be You. Cuz’ your G-R-R-REAT! 

F*:I’m still chuckling over how God’s sense of humor is. How be it that two interior designers wind up as prayer partners at a conference for women who speak-lead-write?! <–*Godwink* Perhaps the Lord has majorly different plans for us as careers. “Smile” I look forward to the friendship that we’ll begin and the opportunity to lift each other up in prayer.

Bloggin Buddies:All you ladies are just precious! I was excited to meet you each in person and know you outside of your bloggy titles. Your all hottt momma’s & grandmomma’s too! I will be continuing to read your blogs and hopefully we’ll meet again next year.

War Tactics & Elliptical Machines June 17, 2008

Visualize this…

Early morning sunshine spilling onto the living room floor. Music blasting Survivor’s “Eye of the Tiger.” A big dork (me, of course) huffing it 100 mph on her elliptical machine belting out the words to the song in total 80’s fashion (minus the sweatbands). ** I have added the video for memories sake in case any of you were in need of a flashback. ** 

What the heck am I doing you ask?! Preparing for war with Satan over going to my conference with a sound mind, open ears, and a willing heart. It’s apparent that Satan is attacking P31 and it’s attendees with doubts, fears, sickness, devastation, inadequate feelings, family troubles, and stress. To that i say…

…”Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against the flesh and blood, but against the rulers , against the authorities, and against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore, put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground”… Ephesians 6:10-13

So while i sweat my tail off on the elliptical machine my prayer is that the Lord will be BIG for us girls. Send to us reminders of His promises, open doors, safe traveling, and peace in our hearts. An just be BIG in our lives this weekend.  We want more of Him and less of ourselves! Help us keep strong and wear our armour of the Lord as satan wages battle in our minds for these last few days.

Thank you Lord in advance for what you are going to bring about through this conference for each of us! We trust that no time is wasted and all things have purpose. Even those desert times we are learning and growing in You.

Sweating Like Crazy,

Heather

 

Heather’s Adventures In Babysitting June 9, 2008

     I am sure that many of you are going to be laughing while i share this experience. As for me, i’m still recovering!

WARNING: If you have a weak bladder please proceed with CAUTION.

     In case some of you don’t already know Barry & I can’t have children due to my accident (which you can read about in my testimony for you new comers). We have lots of nieces and nephews, but once again no kids. Therefore, this large chunk of knowledge on how to handle certain “issues” with kids is totally missing from our brains. Let me fill you in my our  Saturday evening…

     Barry’s sister asked us to watch her youngest child (3 mo old) overnight so she could go to a wedding. We unknowingly accepted this task with big smiles. After getting our nephew and feeling all good about this adventure in baby sitting we got a brilliant idea to take 3 month old Isaac out to dinner. Mind you Barry & I are known for our dinners where we talk, stare into each others eyes, and solve the problems of the adult world all while we sip tea & eat a 7 course meal. Isaac was pretty good for the most of dinner. I thought it rather odd how he can still be drinking formula from a bottle yet know that when i lifted the fork it was my turn to eat  which meant he must be held immediately. I obliged and learned how to juggle a baby  in one arm while wrapping pasta around a fork without spilling it on him. A+ for that!

     Finally, we came back home from our outting and decided that it would be nice to bathe him and put jammies on. Of course, all the while hoping to lay him down in his crib directly following the bath & bottle. I leaned over the tub starting to lower him in … as soon as his pinky toe touched the water he let our the most blood curddling scream. It was like i heard him one second and then my brain went deaf the next, then heard, then deaf, then heard, then deaf. Barry comes running in from the living room too see what was the cause for breaking the sound barrier only to find him being hovered over the nicely made warm bath. Normally, the only cause for such a scream as that comes as a direct result of a cockroach or frog sighting. It’s a wonder that i didn’t drop him from this unannounced screech of terror. I now know that he has a fear of water… apparently. His mother never alerted me to this tidbit of information. F- in child bathing.

     After our violation of the sound barrier at bath time i made a bottle and thought that was the key to getting those little eyes closed for the evening. Wrong! Wrong! Wrong!  The bottle was not the answer and i never did find out what was. Regardless, i spent the next 13 hours trying everything under the sun. I was up, down, up, down… the pacifier (what a deceiving name) falls out of the baby’s mouth he screams again, i put it back in, i propped, i covered, i cradled, i rocked, i sang ( I am certain that action did not help), i prayed, i begged, i tried to barter with a 3-mo old, and i finally thought that  maybe i’d  done something right because one eyelid shut. I Iaid him into the crib, hopped into my bed, got my blankies all situated , shut my eyes, and as soon as my head hit the pillow…. he screamed louder than before.  F- In bedtime attempts

     Where is Barry you ask? Sleeping like an angel. I looked over at him in the dark with gleaming eyes shooting daggers at his ears. Later i nicely told him i hated him for sleeping there are cute & comfy while i was enduring the worst hours of my life.

     I picked back up Isaac and nicely explained to him that no matter how terrible he thought he had it …. this was 1000 times worse for me! Prayerfully, his mother came after Barry called to ask her to please rescue us from her monster child. Whew! We high fived that this adventure had at last come to an end! Then i promptly called my sister to yell at her for not coming to my rescue in the night- she laughed, My mother laughed, My grandmother laughed! People i am not laughing! It will be a VERY LONG time before i consider self induced all night torture again.

     Nevertheless, i took 3 birth control pills yesterday morning in hopes to ensure i won’t have that happen again! I give you moms big props!  How in the world do you do it?! Barry & I have promised each other we’ll never do that to ourselves again! It’s apparently not our “gift” from the Lord as it was quite evident in retrospect. I prayed in the night that the Lord would forgive me for my stupidity in ever saying i wanted a child of my own.

REPORT CARD

Barry & Heather

Bathing- F

Bedtime- F

Hope you all enjoyed this lil’ funny from my weekend!

It’s Official…The nervousness has set in! June 7, 2008

     Yesterday I got my registration in the mail for the She Speaks conference. It was such a hectic day that i never got the chance to actually sit down and read any of it. Well, i finally did today. As i read through the paperwork a wave of chills went down my spine, my eyes teared up, and all of a sudden the nervousness set in. Nowi’m kind of an emotional wreck. I’m not a cry-er, but i think i am today. I don’t really know why i cry when i think about this (going to the conference). I guess it’s maybe the realization that this somehow marks the beginning of whatever it is that the Lords up to with & In me because the choice to GO was my first step outta the boat of comfort and familiarity. It’s exciting and i know i shouldn’t feel nervous. Maybe it’s not totally nervousness either. Perhaps the thought that God could use my life’s struggles to bring joy to His name- which is very humbling so i hear.

Hebrews 12:1 “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.”

     You all are my witnesses! So i’ll throw off my thoughts which hinder me many times and the unbelief of some which also hinders me. I’m freeing myself from any sin that entagles by rendering & repentance. An lastly i am going to run this race marked out for us!! The race for time because not a one of us knows how many more days or hours we have until our departure or the arrival of the Lord for his children to bring us home. The race is to love Him more each day by living out the instructions He gave us in His Word. Because of that love for the Most High unbelievers will be drawn and when they seek out from their heart of hearts where this love comes from they will find Him- The Lord of Lords, King of Kings, Forgiver of Sins, Healer of Hearts, The Great I Am.  An all this regardless of how rich, how poor, how successful or not, how broken hearted, how lonely, how humbled, how famous, how big or small a church, how many activities or not, how old or young, how shy or bold, how much scripture knowledge or not because by Him we are accepted just as we are, where we are! How bout’ a race for that folks!?! It’s awesome to see friends and unbleivers turn their lives over to the Lord.

     I pray the Lord makes me a good runner like Billy Graham. I know your thinking, “Billy Graham didn’t run he preached.” Well, preaching is running the race! Can you imagine if we could count how many have come into a personal relationship with the Saviour from his ministry- that the Lord operates? I bet millions!! I would say Billy Graham and his ministry have “run” the race with a perseverance that the Lord has ignited in them day-after-day, year-after-year. An look at the fruit they have to show for their obedience, willingness, and complete trust in the Lord.

     Even though i’m kinda nervous about this trip to the conference. I’m thinking B-I-G, no in the box Jesus for me!! I’m stectching out… in prayer… that God moves mountains and springs up wells in my life. I hope all of you are! We gotta think bigger than ever before because the sin seems to be growing larger and faster. An lets face it- People need the Lord!

Fighting Back Tears- Heather

Weekend Fun! June 5, 2008

 

I promised some pictures from the last couple weekends. So here they are! We hope you enjoy them. There’s quite an array of critters there to see- Leopard Rays, Sharks, Goofballs, Horses, In-Law’s, Spanish Mackrel, Husbands, and even my sibling- Ms. Heidi Jeanne & her soon to be hubby Matty. Maybe i can share some cute pics i took of them later too! Enjoy!

 

New Patterns June 4, 2008

     Yeah, Yeah, Yeah… Where have I been you ask?! Well, don’t worry i haven’t been slacking. I’ve been behind the scene’s trying to get the new blog up and running. Since i used a different blogging platform it’s quite unfamiliar and takes some time to get all figured out. On top of that i have been in communication with the designer for my new site. All that process caused me to fry brain cells. So many decisions! But prayerfully by the end of the month the new design will be up and I’ll do the official launch. It’s gonna be really cool! Please go over, check it out, then let me know what kinds of info you’d like to learn about or get the truth on. I’m always wanting to know what it is my readers would like to hear about. (The Green Wifey)   Now onto my recent thoughts…

     While i have been in fasting & prayer i must tell you something about you changes. I’m not sure how to completely explain it other than your mind becomes focused more on godliness. I notice myself saying “no” to things and walking away or shutting it off. I found myself wandering the aisles of Goodwill yesterday praying for all the people in each aisle and the store employees as i browsed for hidden treasures & steals of deals. It makes you sensitive to the things of the Lord i believe. I like this new pattern that has emerged. I hope i never fall out of it!

     Sunday night i finished my the Fasting by Jentezen Franklin book and I can’t say it enough- That is one dynamic book. I have learned things from scripture and had my eyes opened in so many ways. It’s just awesome to have the power of this knowledge in God’s promises and desires. Many of the verses really came alive to me for the first time.

     As the weeks are creeping closer to conference time (June 20-22) I feel excited about the direction the Lord is taking me. I really am setting no expectations for anything because i want the Lord to just do whatever He wants without me in His way. I’m just praying for Him to open my eyes to His call and help guide my steps in whatever capacity He would like me to use them and where. I’m just trying to keep my mind open to what the Lord is teaching me about things because from that is where I’ll eventually draw my inspiration for writing all things.

     On another note- We have been praying about the potential future move and already strange things are happening at Barry’s work. Not sure what God’s up to but the timing of it all and the way it’s happened seem very out of the ordinary for them. Barry’s boss told him that there will be a lot of moves happening within the company here over the next couple years. Who know’s what’ll happen maybe some other people will move and Barry will step into a higher position right here in our town.  

      I hope all of you are having great weeks! Sorry I’ve been away from my Moose for a bit. I have missed writing for & to you all! Later i’ll try to put some pics up of our fun weekend on the water and with the horses!